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Family & Friends Effects

The effects of suicide on family and friends.

First Post Here (Just trying to say hi)

by Kisser 5/19/2019

written by Kisser

First of all, im brasilian, so really sorry for my horrible english. My name is João Pedro, i wont say my full name bcs isnt time, but i will.
I really want to be honest, i fuckin saw a suicide note and i didnt say nothing, a person was about to die and i didnt say anyshit, screw me and if you want say something for me say it. I am a coward and always was one, so pls say it
I just come to talk and those things, i trying to forget about my fuckin familly and my relationship, that is going worse, bcs […]

5/19/2019 2 comments

Life is pain

by FutureDreamer 5/18/2019

written by FutureDreamer

People can’t seem to understand when I tell them that 95% of my time on this earth has been suffering or painful.

Yes there are good times and good friends but they are so few and far between it’s just painful to continue. I’m pretty sure I have major depression, but without any money or healthcare coverage I can’t get it diagnosed, and honestly I really don’t care enough to try anymore.

Also lost my job in 2014, lost my health care coverage, and was rejected for unemployment or assistance of any kind. I had to sell the house, most of my belongings, and burn all of […]

5/18/2019 18 comments

fUk

by winniethepooh 5/16/2019

written by winniethepooh

im trying to get better but i can’t when every god damn thing is about you im trying to get better but i can’t when every god damn thing is about you im trying to get better but i can’t when every god damn thing is about you im trying to get better but i can’t when every god damn thing is about you im trying to get better but i can’t when every god damn thing is about you im trying to get better but i can’t when every god damn thing is about you

5/16/2019 1 comment

What Really Love Is?

by SkyButBlue 5/16/2019

written by SkyButBlue

Back in High School, there was this girl that i like, like A LOT or should i say I LOVE HER. She’s pretty good looking, athletic and the coolest girl that i know but she was out of my league, that’s the problem. I’m this skinny not good looking guy. Like I’m the complete definition of a NERD. But i didn’t care. I had to gather all this guts to prove to her that I can be the GUY for her. I want her to like me. I heard she had a boyfriend and then they broke up. I know it was a good opportunity […]

5/16/2019 14 comments

12:11 am

by winniethepooh 5/16/2019

written by winniethepooh

im not feeling too good not sure if it’s even worth it to mention i wrote a suicide note about a week ago it said if i finish all of my courses i’ll go ahead and kill myself so just in case it doesn’t work i can still graduate high school it said my abusive dysfunctional horrible family makes me so depressed that i want to take my own life and have for nearly the past 5 years i don’t even care about living to my 17th birthday because i can barely handle today how can i manage making it 2 more months i feel […]

5/16/2019 7 comments

If you dont feel loved today..

by Itscolourlife 5/13/2019

written by Itscolourlife

If you dont feel loved today
Or maybe yesterday
Or maybe since you are a kid

Try to believe
One day someone will find you as precious
Or love you more than theirself
And even give you her/his everything just to make you smile

Just wait until that times come
Even in your worst condition
Believe me
You will find someone who love you

He/she will love you
Just the worst you are
Just the bad you are
And just how you still breathing

He/she will trust you
He/she will love you

5/13/2019 6 comments

Hey i made it!

by SkyButBlue 5/13/2019

written by SkyButBlue

Another day. I made it. Everything’s as usual. Some things sucks but some are getting better. I’m just hoping that i would at some point would feel different than i was yesterday. Like a happy story in some books or movies. I’m trying to be like i’m not a sad story. I mean, there were moments that i felt that i succeeded but at the end of the day, all came back. When i lay down in bed, these thoughts and feelings haunt me. I didn’t know what to do. So here i am. Writing this and hoping that somewhere someone is feeling the same […]

5/13/2019 1 comment

I don’t really know anymore

by Insomnia disaster 5/12/2019

written by Insomnia disaster

I lay here hopelessly upon my bed
where words seem to fall yet,
they never seem to leave my head
where I sit behind a colourless screen and constantly keep falling in and out of a bad dream.
The net I cast to set me free only ended up tying me up,
threatening to snap at the feel of a touch,
an emotion which is all controlled by the only constant friend,
who whispers in my ears and slowly cripples my self-esteem.
Is this the end?
It feels like I’m dying,
the comfort of my friends only seems to hurt me.
It hurts me to […]

5/12/2019 0 comment

how are you doing, really?

by unknown 5/9/2019

written by unknown

I was watching a video of people answering this question and id wish someone would ask me this, but id like to answer anyways. Im smiling, breathing, laughing with everyone around. but how am I really when I wake up each morning and as I lie in my bed before going to sleep. with all the thoughts running through my mind.

im almost nineteen. as I get older each year I realize more and more that I don’t know what I actually want to do. I don’t know what my future holds or what ill end up doing. I have these goals and dreams, I want […]

5/9/2019 2 comments

Lost.

by strawberrycrown 5/7/2019

written by strawberrycrown

Lately I’ve started to lose myself an everything I had always believed in. Like, I truely don’t know where my head is at anymore… And at the rate I’m going, I’m not only hurting myself, but also those around me. If I didn’t already hate myself enough before, I certainly have more reasons to now. People are telling me I’m changing and I don’t know how to feel or act about, I’m just lost.

I was already on the verge of death recently and had started to find no joy in anything I do anymore. I had been ditching school a fair bit the past month […]

5/7/2019 8 comments

Cutting again and again

by Ritacu Isn 4/30/2019

written by Ritacu Isn

Idk why I am posting. It’s not even really suicide related nor do I plan to.

i found this website out after trying to find tools to cut with more since I was getting bored with it (as sick as it sounds…) and found this website. Originally, I thought it was a dead website since the look of it looked like it was stuck in 2010 as well as the only post I saw dating to 2013. However, I saw the recent posts dating back to an hour. All my life I struggled with my identity, depression, anxiety as well as now my cutting addiction just […]

4/30/2019 4 comments

life isn’t for me

by lostcase 4/24/2019

written by lostcase

ive had enough, life hates me every fucking thing never worked for me. i wanted to get into a good uni, all my friends got in but me, i wanted a good major but now my major is stupid. i fight with my family about money and life is so fucking expensive i’d rather fucking die. i wanted to get a driving license but it got denied. i have to really beg for a ride even to uni and it fucking sucks . i dont think i really love anyone and the one person i love is too complicated and would leave any second. […]

4/24/2019 2 comments

Save me before it’s too late

by TheSadAngel 4/15/2019

written by TheSadAngel

I once decided to end my life at March 15. But then some things have turned upside down and I decided to live. But now, a month after that day, I decided to end my life too. Not now, I say, but soon. Soon. What I have in my mind is after my boyfriend and I’s anniversary, May 17. I just want to feel what it’s like to have a one year relationship. I just want to make him feel loved too, even for one last time. But if things goes out of planned, then maybe earlier. I just need to finish this school year, […]

4/15/2019 7 comments

Truth is..

by wearehannahbaker 4/9/2019

written by wearehannahbaker

..two months into antidepressants and I am feeling so much better. I having a really good and fun time meeting new people and readjusting things I wasn’t comfortable with before. I am planning a trip overseas and I am genuinely EXCITED but….when is the other shoe going to drop?

I still have all of you at the back of my mind. I think of each person who is going through a struggle and posts here hoping someone will notice. I wish you all find the right combination of therapy and medication and get better.

I miss my friend Unknownsoldier. I haven’t heard from him in a while. […]

4/9/2019 3 comments

Getting It All Out There

by Mars_42 4/7/2019

written by Mars_42

I think I was 6 or 7 the first time I considered suicide. I really didn’t want to go to swim class–such a stupid, stupid reason to want to die. Nevertheless, I locked myself in my room and considered how to kill myself. I decided on a knife. I wanted to slice myself open. The knives were in the kitchen, though. I put on my swim suite and went to class. But from that day on, death was in the back of my mind. By the age of 10, I was mentally rehearsing my suicide note nightly and crying myself to sleep. My room was […]

4/7/2019 3 comments

I don’t believe in friendship

by Walkingghoul1739 4/3/2019

written by Walkingghoul1739

This summer, two friends of mine seemed to become overly skeptical of me…. They seemed to always hint and nudge that they felt that I was a “*****”. I went from enjoying spending time with each of them to only seeing them grow more and more restless and uneasy around me and seeming to insult me at any given opportunity, and often for no reason at all.

One day I got sick of it and stopped talking to each of them. I went from hanging out with these 2 kids that I had been best friends with since pre school (we are now 23) almost every […]

4/3/2019 3 comments

I feel bad… yet angry

by ariusversea 4/2/2019

written by ariusversea

I don’t want to bother anyone with my problem. And yet I feel as if I’ll explode. For the past week, I’ve had to watch my abuser walk down my same hallways, spend quality time with his friends in his new clothes (guess his mom spoiled him), while I with in my usual frustration, jumpy whenever I feel anyone come near me, wanting to run away and having no one that understands because I CAN’T TELL.

but what if i killed myself? what if i fell out the window? in my letter, i’d blame everyone that protected him, everyone that made me feel like i […]

4/2/2019 4 comments

Dear my “best friend”.

by strawberrycrown 4/2/2019

written by strawberrycrown

I hope you know I’m never asking you to see me again. I’m afraid to call you now because I’m being “annoying”. I’m not going to be making any effort anymore, that’s up to you. Things have been said, hurtful things – and with no explaination. I don’t have much trust for many people anymore but I thought you were one of the good ones. I hope you know that you make me fore more ashamed and embarrassed of myself than you think of me. I want you to know that you are the reason for my pain Rn. I want you to know that I […]

4/2/2019 6 comments

anorexia and love

by lostcase 3/31/2019

written by lostcase

hey, i wanted to ask this for a while and i searched lots and i never found a proper answer, so basically the girl i love has anorexia , its quite serious and no matter how much she sometimes reaches with recovery whenever she sees her weight up she’d freak out and goes back to giving up and wanting to die. i realllly want to help her, she gets treatment and all but they are pushing her so much and i know its too much and i want to tell her that she needs to recover without me pushing her more. how can i ? […]

3/31/2019 2 comments

What is the difference between life, dreams, memories ,and false memories.

by anon death 3/30/2019

written by anon death

Well I guess you could say I don’t entirely understand my past. I got abused by my mother had bully’s as friends and well I was scared. Now I have ptsd ,panic attacks daily, and cry everyday. But more of the problem is that I have a lot of false memories ,probably to cope with reality, I can’t tell the difference between life and dreams most days. That causes problems. Losing a pen causes a mental breakdown because I can’t understand what is real. I can’t put up with it. I want to die. I don’t want to cut myself. I have before ,but what […]

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3/30/2019 1 comment

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