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No Future in Sight

by jmc22 4/21/2016

written by jmc22

I’m heading on towards the future and I’m being told to start thinking about my future. The scary part is, though, I don’t see myself having one. I try to think about it, me going to college, having a job, meeting someone special. But I just can’t see it. I’m so scared because everyone around me is figuring things out, and I don’t know if I even want to live ’til the end of high school. My chest tightens up, my head starts hurting, everything gets a bit fuzzy, and my head becomes an empty void. Is this just me?

I don’t even know how to […]

4/21/2016 3 comments

Game of Love or Death

by Zetsumei 4/20/2016

written by Zetsumei

I found something yesterday. It is either the start of my redemption or the end of my torment. I decided to make a game. This game will be extremely difficult and almost impossible to win. Yet, I’m satisfied this is the future I’m placing this one last bet on. The rules sound simple: Make my ex who hates me, fall in love with me again within 4 days. However, my depression and apathy have caused her to view me as nothing more than an asshole who enjoys hurting her.

If she truly wanted nothing more to do with me, why would she accept my friend request […]

4/20/2016 7 comments

What if?

by kupo95 4/19/2016

written by kupo95

I am sitting here wondering if I cut again what will they do If they see and I told them the fact i did it on purpose…or if I try to kill myself and I fail what on earth will they do?

Before me husband threaten to to tell my dad and brother but he not talking to my family but have to live with his . I really dont give two flying fucks if he tells his parents I would love to see there recations.

they talk about it….it would look bad on there part becuse every one we know ..knows im not like that or […]

4/19/2016 4 comments

Life on the Border

by dillon 4/19/2016

written by dillon

Hello guys. I don’t know where to start. This is my first post here.

I have borderline personality disorder and find it nearly impossible to have meaningful and healthy relationships. I feel so alone all the time and have no one I can talk to about it. When I try I get the stereotypical “try to be less negative.” This loneliness leads to hatred. Hatred of happy people. Hatred of laughing kids. Hatred of those with good jobs and loving girlfriends. Hatred of the world; and even more hatred for those who can’t see how fucked up it is. This hatred drove away my girlfriend, it […]

4/19/2016 15 comments

Hi everyone

by DeadHeart 4/13/2016

written by DeadHeart

So over the past few months I think about suicide daily, this was not me a year ago.

I’m alone most of the time, besides work, I’m 30 years, I have a lot of debt… But most of all its the loneliness.

I have a nervous breakdown Friday and Saturday night regularly. I go out toto try and meet people but as the sun goes down I can feel the panic and my mood start heading down hill so I quickly head for my car and rush home.

4/13/2016 1 comment

Funny Situation N

by J Doe 4/13/2016

written by J Doe

Hello again. I’m glad that there were so many welcoming comments. I think I will start to post daily now, just to feel better. You know what I find funny? How open you can be with strangers. Often I throw out random hypothetical scenarios to people to see what they would say. “If there was a five grenades on the table and only one was live, what would it take to make you pull a single pin?” Often I would get answers like all the money in the world or all the knowledge in the world. When they would ask me I would say maybe […]

4/13/2016 2 comments

Protected: Well

by Dungeon 4/10/2016

written by Dungeon

There is no excerpt because this is a protected post.

4/10/2016 11 comments

Screwed, totally screwed and panicking

by chelle428 4/10/2016

written by chelle428

So my work only scheduled me 9 hours next week. I don’t even know what the fuck I’m supposed to do, I can’t live on that, that’s not even 70$ worth of pay for me. And usually when they start doing this to people then they keep doing it every week. I have to find a different job probably and I’m so stressed because finding a job here is so hard, our states economy is in the shitter and there’s almost no jobs and no one hiring. Like how am I even supposed to survive? No idea what I’m going to do, it seems like […]

4/10/2016 4 comments

A Short Introduction and Jenga

by Blindfolded But Claims She Can See the Stars 4/9/2016

written by Blindfolded But Claims She Can See the Stars

Hello, I’m Ruana. Just felt I should at least give that for a short introduction since I’m a new ‘un. Hello, I hope to learn something about myself, help others (my greatest hope for however long I stay), and perhaps get a little better myself. A week or two ago I started crying when I texted a friend of mine, “I’ll get better, okay?” I want to add that I felt my words weren’t good enough to be here or right enough or something enough, but well, here I am. Nice to meet you.

Now to the topic of my title, or well the more intriguing […]

4/9/2016 2 comments

by lonelyroses 4/7/2016

written by lonelyroses

“Sing for me, baby.” He said, “Please, I wrote this song for you to sing to, please just sing to it.”

I stood there and gave him a blank stare. He knew that I didn’t want to, but I promised him about a month ago when he asked.

(Earlier that year)
I was singing to the music we were listening to while I was driving him home from school. He looked at me and said, “You are a good singer.”
I thanked him, but then I was a little embarrassed that he was paying attention to my singing.
He said, “You know I need someone to sing […]

4/7/2016 0 comment

STEPS BEFORE SUICIDE:

by GTSuicide_6 4/3/2016

written by GTSuicide_6

In two days, I’m ending things.

I don’t think the advice given here is related to the ban on “Suicide methods help”.

I am not asking how to kill myself.

I am not asking for convincing.

My mind is set and I will do it in two days, no one will stop me but myself.

I should’ve done this earlier, but I was just too all over the place for these last few weeks.

I need some tips on what to start off with, the before-death-preparation.

What should I do?

Write the note?

Should I clean up my room entirely?

Does that mean throwing out EVERYTHING, what do I keep?

I hate this.

I just want to […]

4/3/2016 20 comments

How do I tell them

by brxken._.lxcks 4/1/2016

written by brxken._.lxcks

Now that summer is coming I’m going to have to start wearing short sleeves so at one point I’m either going to have to tell my parents or they will find out about the scars that I have made on my wrist. I want to tell them that I have been doing it to myself but I don’t know how to tell them, and when I do tell them they are going to tell my whole family. And if my whole family find out they are going to start asking me questions all the time, and watching everything I do. It will make me even […]

4/1/2016 3 comments

The snow turned into rain

by Sameoldlangsyne 4/1/2016

written by Sameoldlangsyne

I can’t come up with a reason to go through the struggle again. I haven’t had an intimate relationship in more than 5 years.

I was married for 20 years, but she wanted to start over by herself.

I have a 20 year old daughter who only messages me when I send her money. She doesn’t answer her phone, and doesn’t reply to texts… Unless there was money involved.

I just got laid off from my job. I’m too old to start over. I’ve done it too many times. What for? To see who wins the election? That doesn’t matter… To see the next movie or show? What […]

4/1/2016 0 comment

Doctor’s Appointment

by JiminyCrispies 3/29/2016

written by JiminyCrispies

I have decided I’m going make an appointment with my doctor as soon as possible, and I’m going to get the criteria list for both Bipolar (because of my aunt’s concerns) and this other disorder (which I’ve been questioning after doing research and heavily relating to). I’m going to tick off the symptoms I have and give them to him (this is after he helps me with the Angels).

Since no one is doing anything to help me, I’m going to get the ball rolling. Even if I’m not diagnosed with neither of these, it’ll give them some insight as to the symptoms I’m showing and […]

3/29/2016 7 comments

Hospitalized

by hallowy 3/29/2016

written by hallowy

Hei! Let’s just start that I have been hospitalized basically since 16th of december( was let out beginning of march but taken in after 4 days..). I made a suicide attempt and thats how it started. They are still not sure I won’t do it again so they keep raising my antidepressants dose and keep me in hospital. But I am not depressed and actually I believe I will end with suicide anyway, regardless of my mood and wether its sooner or later. I wonder what will be done with me if I endlessly admit to being suicidal. Will I be just let out eventually […]

3/29/2016 8 comments

Dear Jordan,

by beaubri 3/28/2016

written by beaubri

You’re sitting next to me. Were about able to start talking. I’ve missed you. I hugged you when we got out of the car. We clung on to each other tightly. Your heart beat was strong like the night at Rock Fest.

With love,

Brianna.

3/28/2016 0 comment

why?

by disgusting 3/28/2016

written by disgusting

I seem to meet, know or find the people who suffer the most. And why me, when I have nothing and can do nothing to help? An old friend of mine has been through a lot of hell in his life. He just found out through his dad admitting it, that his dad beat and kicked his mom while she was pregnant to try to kill him as a baby. And that’s why he never had his parents in his life. They hated him from the start. And he thought he had just reconnected with his mom, but I guess she was faking it because […]

3/28/2016 4 comments

Hi…

by MidnightGlade 3/28/2016

written by MidnightGlade

I’m new here… uh, actually, I already knew of this place, but… I never had the courage to actually post something here. I guess this is a start? Maybe we can be friends :). I hope that we can help each other or at least be friends .

3/28/2016 27 comments

Ouch wait that feels good

by Mr Angry-mosta tha time 3/26/2016

written by Mr Angry-mosta tha time

Today I burned my arm over the boiling kettles steam it hurt and still stings but I like it now its something to occupy my mind and its not like a normal pastime or anything and now I feel like I wanna start harming again to feel the pain and take my mind somewhere else for a while this may be good or bad not too sure yet.

3/26/2016 2 comments

Dark hole

by Drowning 3/25/2016

written by Drowning

When uv been depressed and suicidal for a long time you start to embrace the darkness finding ways to stay alive in the dark fog by self harming changing one pain for another only thing that helps emotional pain and thinking of death can calm ones active mind thinkin of a method iv got 3 methods to choose from OD not to keen on hanging might need to think more about needs planning and drinking poison need to do research or try the wrist

i don’t do highs and trains think it’s brutal shotgun to the face is the dream I feel so calm talking about […]

3/25/2016 6 comments

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