How do you ground yourself?
For me, by watching TED talks and journaling and going here to this website for overly sad humans.
Once again I’m here to read ppl’s agony. It grounds me whenever I have suicidal thoughts. It’s tragic to know that people are there for you but eventually they’ll get tired of your shit and toxcitity then leave you knowing that it would make you misery. Makes me want to kill myself more. I know that I don’t have to depend on people and get their validation but it’s hard not to when you rlly love those ppl around you. I feel like a burden. Always have been. I blame myself for everything and for the existence I found no purpose and not thankful for. […]
If it’s cowardice that’s stopping me, is that something I should try to overcome? Would that even be possible?
If it’s because I don’t want to devastate my parents, then why isn’t that enough to motivate me to get my shit together and do what I need to to survive?
If I’m always going to be alone, and the main purpose of life is connection with others, then what’s the point in continuing?
If I’m an unforgivably terrible person, and the world would be better off without me, then why aren’t I doing the right thing and ending it?
If my mind generates high levels of emotional suffering, and […]
I’m very new to actually talking to someone/ people how I have felt. Loneliness. It hits harder than ever these days. All I want is a simple ‘are you okay?’ from anyone. I feel fine some days but when I’m not speaking to anyone it all comes back to me how I have lost all my friends and the ones I have left don’t even bother to check up on me. I recently lost a bestfriend I have had for 10 years and damn that hit hard. I constantly think about whether I should repair things with her but what she did was unforgivable in […]
Does the world notice when one more person dies? These days with people dying by the thousands, would anyone notice just one more old woman dying? I am 59, almost 60 and I am considered a “boomer”. All I hear on the news is how the young are saying this virus is great because it is getting rid of the old useless boomers. The Bommer Remover Virus is fantastic, as far as they are concerned. So, I am here. Waiting to die. Bring it on, I am ready. I have nothing to live for. No family other than a sister that hates me, and a […]
My closest attempts were when I felt useless. When the sinking I had felt in my chest, when the lack of energy, and utter hopelessness within me had no reason to live.
More recently, I thought I was doing better. I thought that I had won over these feelings, conquered them; sending them back to the depths of wherever they came.
I guess that was probably because I had gotten a job that I love. One that I thought was too much to handle, one that brought countless nights of stress to me… but now, under this quarantine, I feel myself slipping back into old habits.
I expect […]
why are video games more important then me? my exs ignored me to play them even my own father that hasnt seen me in 18yrs does it. oh well….i guess no one likes me 🙁
I’m tired of this shitty life. I’m tired of fighting through every situation and still never being good enough for anyone else.
I’ve reached the point where tired is an understatement. This depression and anxiety and all of these negative thoughts have dragged me past exhaustion. Everything feels heavy and it’s all pointless. I just want it to be over but it’s like I’m too tired to even make that happen.
I think I’m going to book it out of this place after I finish classes for the year. I’ve become an irreversible failure, and there’s no way to fix it this time. Maybe I’ll train-hop out of here. Once I’m gone, there’s nothing keeping me from following through. I’m way too depressed to function anyway. My meds, that I pay way too much money for, aren’t working. Trying to get help doesn’t work for me. My mind’s just finally calm enough for me to do it, not out of a sudden and temporary spike of emotion, but through calm reasoning. I don’t want to be […]
For those who need to disappear but are unable to go through with suicide.
I have spent most of my recent years attempting to “stop being me”. I am here to share my findings in a hope to help some of you. I will preface this by saying that those who struggle with addiction probably would not be able to derive any aid from this, as a good amount of patience and will is required to follow through with this process. I do not recommend this to everyone, especially minors. If anyone would wish for it, I will provide my contact details so you can reach me […]
I’m lost.
always
Searching for you.
so
I’m trapped.
sad
What am I even looking for?
death
Why am I doing this to myself?
death
Why cant I find it?
death
Why wont this end?
delete myself
I cant figure out the answer and i figured who better to ask then a bunch of depressed people. Ive been trying to figure it out for like a month ugh.
what is it like to be loved?i wouldn’t know. escapism has gone so far where i don’t think i can face the truth, that i’m still alive, in the world. i’m still all alone. nobody’s there to listen, nobody’s there to love me, nobody knows this side except for myself, and i hate myself for it.
i hate myself, oh my god i hate myself with every single cell in my body. the depressive episode ended and being alive has been a numb, grey process of eating, sleeping, playing games, and more, the things i hate myself for. i can’t release the shadows, i can’t feel […]
Hi guys,
Its been nearly two years since my last post and I’m in the process of therapy but its not helping me out the way I expected. Until 7 months ago I was physically and mentally abused for over 11 years and it has left it’s scares. I’ve been diagnosed with PTSD and depression and I’ve learned to accept it. But the reason for my return is that I was about to attempt to kill myself again, but I used a technique I learned in therapy to stop my attempt. I thought of the last few attempts and I started crying, something that I never […]
May be it’d be better if coronavirus take me and I die.
I’m trapped in quarentine with a person of my family I cant stand.
Meanwhile my beloved is working in a hospital. He will have coronavirus sooner or later and may die bc he’s from risk group.
I cried a lot yesterday ?
After all this pandemia our world wont exist anymore. Everything will be different. I’m not sure I want to see it all, not without him. ?
When I was young and did bad on a school assignment or quiz my parents punished and yelled me instead of thinking there was something wrong with me. Now I didn’t just do bad every now and then, for example I would get a failing grade on an open read quiz because I just couldn’t focus on reading. It’s been this way for as long as I can remember with school work being complete hell my whole life. I am now in my senior year of highschool, and I figured out on my own last year that I have adhd. I found out that I […]
It seems like this thing we call society is made up of a vague impression of what everyone around us values, and how they think things ought to be, or how they think things are. I don’t like talking about society because it feels like I’m assaulting all the people who don’t fit into whatever generalization I’m thinking about, and reinforcing the reasoning of the people who do fit into that generalization. And I would never want to reinforce bad qualities in people who have them. I also don’t want to tell anyone what they should think or how they should feel about something according […]
I know I just posted earlier today, but.. don’t have anyone else to talk to.
My only friend leaves me on read. My fiancee ignores me when I’m upset and is generally kinda rude to me when I’m not, though I don’t think she realizes it. Shes been having a rough time, I know, but I feel like I’ve always done most of the work in this relationship. I fetch her anything she wants, I try to be there for her when she’s sad. I cleaned out her entire car for her when she was in the hospital. I painted things for her while […]
I learned recently that I have atychiphobia. At least I think I do. It makes sense. Although a part of me just thinks I’m lazy. And when it comes time to produce, I panic and get scared. My left side hurts. It’s like a throbbing pain. Oh well. I’m back home. University basically shut down so I had to leave. Oh well. Better than being in a dirty apartment. Also food. I haven’t heard anything from her in like two weeks. I text and call everyday. It probably comes off […]
I feel like I’m floating. With the ebb and flow of the water rocking me back and forth. Ears just under the water surface muting all the noise. Afraid to take deep breaths or move too quickly.
At some peace but still feeling this close to being out of control. Like one wrong move will just sink my body under and take the air from my lungs before I can do anything to stop it.
Floating in the middle of my life right now. Ready to turn over and swim or just give up and sink. I haven’t decided yet. No one would care either way.