Perhaps to the contrary of what many of you would think here,
I am actually live from a quite healthy & “normal” situation/environment, eg:
– I am born from a quite loving, and healthy family. My childhood was a quite happy ones, with lots of traveling here & there.
– I am from a quite middle-to-upper class family, which can be said, I’m pretty much okay/well-off, albeit not super/very-rich.
– I even went to all those what “normal” society would call “great routes” in life like: great education & school overseas (in U.S, “The Land of the Dream” for immigrant people like me, which is so ironic when seeing the downfall of that country now…so I guess nowhere is perfect. hah!), and then went straight ahead to become a “boss” in my own family-business.
But as you all will soon see: it’s exactly that word “normal” that I think is causing all the ‘downfall’ of me, and all the problems,…..until now I’ve become like this now: a quite anti-social, a cynical, jaded, pessimistic, a recluse, misanthrope, hating-humanity-and-this-real-world, and of course automatically, a “loser” in the eyes of my parents’ high expectations (of typical Asian/Chinese) of me being a “successful person” with all the suits & ties blah blah blah.., just like all those stupid, dumb, and mundane 85% – 90% of society & majority of human populations.
Let me explain further.
Real world is boring and very limited, contrary to what so many people have said,..they just simply don’t understand how very limited our physical damn real world is.
Thus I’ve always wanted to become like a distant observer.
I mean, why participate in this damn real world, if I know already from the deepest of my heart & soul, that I won’t enjoy like….perhaps 85%-90% of the so-called “jobs/work”, and its worldview?.. doesn’t make sense to me.
sometimes I wish I just rather not exist at all…rather than exist just merely to live such a mundane, boring life in this so-called real world.
How many times I wish The Matrix (& all those cool sci-fi movies/games) would really come true..
I guess human’s vivid imaginations is much more interesting than this real world, a thousand times!
I hope the astral world, spiritual realms, higher dimensions, Ascension, Multiverse, and all those other ‘crazy’ stuff is really really true.
or otherwise,..goddamn it, I think ‘God’ (or the Universe, or whatever It is) is trying to play a big, cruel, sick joke by creating such a mundane, boring existence for us to live for like about 60-70 years of each our life…blah.
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You’ve took the word right out of my mouth, what making me so down is this reality it could never compare to the place in my mind. Every day I look for spiritual stuff in hope of some other dimension or realm will become my life. Pot is the closest thing I have to escape this reality.
I’m a antisocial third party outsider that has nothing to with what’s happing in reality. I like being with myself cause it when It the only time I feel my dreams/fantasy of my Imagination can seem possible..
I don’t think the world is boring.
I think it’s a rollercoaster & life is what you make of it.
I wish I was in the right situation or state or place where I could enjoy life, where I was happy and could do all the things I dream about.. but my life lead down this route of depression, suicide and all the additional bullshit that comes along with it. Hopefully after a minute of bravery I’ll be able to take that all away & start a new life, if what I (hopefully) believe is true. To be reborn.
Haha niki, I know what it is to have to live up to Asian parent’s expectations of you… live up to and fail. My older sister is a banker, the other one is a lawyer. I am 30, spend half my time travelling around the world, living on nothing and dossing on friend’s couches. The other half the time, I work only when neccesary, haven’t had a full time job since 2006, and am really quite happy with that, despite everyone constantly hassling me that I have to get a steady job and buy a house.
DON’T BUY THE BULLSHIT. The things that make some people happy might not make you happy, so don’t even try. Life doesn’t have to be boring if you don’t want it to be. And if you think the world is boring, I challenge you: how much of the world have you seen? And what different aspects of it have you seen? So you’ve travelled, but how? I challenge you, travel on a budget of $10 a day. See how far it takes you. Hitchike. Sleep in the gutters with the homeless for a night. Walk a day in someone elses shoes. Anything but boring.
But hey, if your still bored after all that, just get a good job, make loads of money and spend all your time playing video games. That’s cool too.
If you’re interested in the metaphysical stuff you should go practice qigong (like, real qigong). very very interesting stuff.
Pick a hobby and strive for excellence, not because you want to earn money with it, but because you love it. I don’t know about you, but that’s never boring.
also, how many of you here also have heard about: Virtual Reality (VR) , Lucid Dreaming , Astral Projection ?
I really wish/hope those things are true … so I can enter into the world/universe of IMAGINATION, .. & bye bye boring, mundane, harsh, & limited Reality ! )